Heal and be free
Life is unfair sometimes. Unfair in ways that are viscerally hard to digest. You might experience some seriously unfair things because, in a parallel way, your soul is outsized and OP. So it requires some OP challenges. The reality of this matrix is inverted. Whoever seems to be getting less/on
You were in the dark before. You went through an initiatory experience. Rock-bottomed. Shitty relationships. Abuse. Violence. Survival mode. Failure. Flunked. Fired. Broke. Drowning in debt. Betrayed. Divorced. Legal battles. Jail. Health issues. Injury. Chronic conditions. Wrong meds. Right meds creating new problems. Bed-ridden. Canceled. Abandoned. Kicked out. Depressed. Self-loathing.
Continue readingNew Level, New Devil (Love Letter to Human Mushrooms)
So, I’ve recently had situations where people I’m into, who are attracted to me (nominally or overtly), decide not to date me for different understandable reasons. It’s been novel because my experience thus far in my life has been if there’s any kind of mutual attraction or “something”, it’s like
Continue readingCodependent Charms & Undisciplined Sexuality
So my bday was a day I spent initially very triggered. (I’m a weirdo though and enjoy being triggered at this point in my life because I see them as opportunities to clear shit and uplevel.) So initially I was on the fence about doing a bday party at all
Last fall, I asked my tarot deck what the theme of the month would be. I got the five of wands–the card of conflict. Sure enough, that month ended up being super conflict ridden, with conflicts with friends, my boss, my professor. I don’t feel anxious very often, but one
If you do it right, breathing is sex. The air penetrates you, you envelop it, and then release. Feeling deep connection to nature is sex. Art is sex. Sex isn’t restricted to physical intimacy and we shut down so much possibility (and create codependency) when we limit it to that.
People given DSM diagnostic labels get gaslit so hard, told something is “wrong” with them when their symptoms are often a result of trauma. I’m not anti-medication, or 100% anti-label, but I think this is a serious problem. For example, most ADHD kids have the experience of getting so much
So two days ago, as I was doing some theta healing on myself, I released the entity of the ghost of white culture. Review: the ghost of white culture is the energetic imprint of European ancestral trauma (think genocide of womxn, famine, multiple waves of colonization within Europe, plague, religious
2018 was hands down the shittiest year of my life. I had a toxic job, a toxic living situation, school sucked, and the friendship I had considered a soul-friendship was unravelling deeply. I started waking up throwing up every couple of days and I had no idea why. And no,
“Are you sure your friend would get you as nice a gift?” my sister asked me. I had gotten my friend a pair of Birks for her birthday because I knew how important adventure was to her. I found myself getting irritated at my sister’s question. And normally, I would